Okay 4, it's day 4 already...
So I lied. To myself. Which I do a lot of. It is the 27th. I should have lost some weight, water weight anyway, not that I started by weighing myself. I hadn’t. BUT I did this morning…omgosh. I am seriously chubby. Not that I didn’t know that, but there is that all-powerful denial that I am in. If I don’t have a number to associate my size with I can convince myself that I am “not that bad.” Maybe I used to be somebody’s goal weight, but now I am 10 pounds heavier (and by heavier I MEAN fatter) than anybody’s (in my mind) goal weight. AND 20 pounds heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight. Have I mentioned that I am completely insane? Well, consider it done! I am Queen of the crazies! All hail, me! LOL!
On a positive note, I have had a good day (yeah, yeah, it’s only 3pm) of watching what I eat and I got a bit of cardio in this morning. Still working on the water…when my eyes are dry I know I am not getting enough. I am not getting enough!
Day Whatever continues and I have a great “diet” day – even with Starbucks – until 9pm…then I raid my kid’s candy stash. And for the record it is never any freaking candy that I buy. It is so thoughtfully donated by friends and family. Do they let their kids eat this crap? Just wondering.
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